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8| A Gay Man Ponders Having Children

Stephen S. Mills


Someone just tweeted another picture
of Neil Patrick Harris and his damn babies,
which makes your phantom ovaries ache
and makes me reach for my bottle of gin,
which I will drink throughout the night,
loving everything bad for me. In a drunken
stupor, I’ll imagine us as daddies: fancy
stroller parading down the streets of Harlem
like gay movie stars. We’d be much less
threatening with babies instead of our
normal strut with a third linked in our arms:
a man wanting us to make him our boy toy.
Yes, I’ve been the daddy to many men,
which will only increase the older I get.
But actual infants are so time consuming,
and I like the music we make just the two
of us. Our strings rubbing together in perfect
harmony. You and me: childless men who
know it’s the bad things that make the life.

Stephen S. Mills is the author of the Lambda Award winning book He Do the Gay Man in Different Voices (Sibling Rivalry Press, 2012). He earned his MFA from Florida State University. His work has appeared in The Antioch Review, PANK, The New York Quarterly, The Los Angeles Review, Knockout, Assaracus, The Rumpus, and others. He is also the winner of the 2008 Gival Press Oscar Wilde Poetry Award. His second poetry collection, A History of the Unmarried (Sibling Rivalry Press) releases in September of 2014. He lives in New York City and can be found at

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